Ok...i can't Title this one.
Hmmm.
Nevermind then.

What is it that makes someone attractive to another? What causes excitement at the thought of said person.

I have been set the task of defining why i wanted to meet someone (Let us call him A for now) as early on in the game as i did. In all honesty i don't know yet, i haven't the faintest. It could've been some metaphysical feeling/premonition. Could it have been a subconscious need to meet someone who seems to be a mirror opf my thoughts and feelings?

Then another thing is niggling at this rotten brain of mine. A guy (Name B) left me, fear of commitment. He made no effort whatsoever to reconcile what there once was yet, once i tell him that i have now met someone he goes all "Oh Woe is Me, Despair despair" on me. What on earth is the meaning behind all this?

Upon my telling another fan from the dating site that i have met someone he launches into a long speech. Telling me i shouldn't change anyhing for this gu, that he has come to like me a lot and would like to continue chatting etc etc. Guy A wanted to meet me at my earliest possible convenience. Why? Because i am so positively amazing? Because he didn't want to risk me getting hung up on someone else in the meantime? Because he felt the strange urgency i did?

Tis a mystery.

What gets to me, however, is why didn't the Speech sayer arrange to meet me yet? It seems the men in out world are becoming neurotic little basket cases, too afraid to do anything for fear of getting their hearts broken. The one man who had the equipment necessary for courage managed to meet me, and now has me.

Moral of the story? Why fear the unknown? Sure, you might get hurt in the process but for fuck's sake, if you don't chance it how the hell do you know if it'll ever work or not?

Take the plunge.